For the Record!

This was another of those weeks that stretch you and either break you or make you able to bounce back like the proverbial rubber band. Monday I was here, stayed until we took Suzanne's green van in to Firestone then I drove to the office where I did not find what I was looking for. Went to the bank, then home and got Jack ready and drove back to Madtown for Chiro appnts. Jack's X-rays were eye opening and way encouraging. Some of the employees who saw them cried at the life they saw opening up in the vertabrae's. Yeah! Accupuncture was barely endurable this week but eventually over and we left for Cambridge to eat supper with Mike and Jessica and play with Eliana. Mike helped get Jack in and eventually back out. Thanks son! It was fun and the bread Jessica made was delicious. The air smelled like sewer when we arrived and I cringe that they have to endure that but guess it is part of the house deal. The place is old and not kept up well. It has not got the charm of the LaValle house but the same caretaker so ???guess it will fare similarly. We were tired so left at 8 so we could be home at 9:30 PM. I stopped and ran in to Walmart to buy a turkey quickly for the Peterson meal on Thursday when we will have our traditional holiday meal together. Tuesday when I awoke I needed to rush to the church to meet some older gents who were making a free paper delivery (the last as the mill closed) and that was fine. Then the Alliant man was to come to my house to checkout my furnace. The good news is we are not dead. The bad news is ..."Condemned"! So then I hurried to search for a reputable heating and cooling person. I checked references with the Alliant man and then called 2. The one who answered promised to come immediately so I ran to the dentist and got my fillings done for tiny cavities and cancelled the crown. Home again to meet with the Muchow man, his company did research for a new wall furnace that would fit in the place the old one was and we then found out that we needed a new chimney up to code as well. The whole deal could be done that next day and the price seemed right (ouch!) as I went online and checked wall-furnace prices which would have the BTU's needed for 1100 square feet. It is done and we are warm. There is always a critic and I heard about my mistakes in buying the house to begin with and etc. For some reason I think I couldn't please her if I was perfect.
But I did my best and that is good enough for me. I know I was not negligent and I thank God that we did not die from the CO the old furnace put out. It was checked a year ago and it was fine. Things change, stuff happens and I cannot be held responsible for all that comes up. I try to stay on top of what needs doing but it is more than I can handle some days. So what should I do? Quit? NO! Later I heard that more of the critical spirit was being verbalized. It makes me feel bad and 2nd best on one hand but on the other hand God knows what I am dealing with and He will deal with both me and my critics with mercy and justice. That gives me confidence to go forward. I already know that I am 2nd best in some eyes, stupid for believing in God and for a long list of other things. I just have to keep loving the ones who have destroyed my family and took away my home. I now have a new home and my family first is my kids and grandkids. I want to honor my mother and help her when I can and show respect for my brother inspite of all that has happened but sometimes the anger overwhelms me and sometimes I am certainly very very sad.
Blogging helps me overcome the feelings!
So the next day (yesterday) was another one full of many things. It was snowing...we accumulated over 6 inches by night. I had to take Jack to the clinic for his shot. That place was very sparse with people. The snow had scared them off. I stopped after the clinic to drop off some things Pam W needed for her daughter's birthday visit (Kari turns 21 today) and hung the bag on the doorknob. I texted her where it was and soon got a call with her crying hard and begging me to come as she had fallen down the outside steps and hurt her back bad. I took Jack home and went back quickly to take her to E.R. where we spent the next 4 hours. Jenna had to shovel and finish the meal. I missed prayer and so did she but the needs got met and dinner happened. It was good in many ways but I am wiped. After dinner the kids watched the 12 dogs of Christmas and followed their parents home. Petersons sump pump went out and their basement flooded on Tuesday and the clean up will take months. Then Jenna and I went again to check on Pam who was taking her flexerall and Vicoden and needing help to lift her left leg. Home to sleep, up for coffee and packing to come down here, another check on Pam and I stopped to find my calendar that would fit in my frame as no one got me one. I finally found one that I liked and got it for 75% off. Yeah.
Needless to say I am dead tired and heading for bed now. I thought Mike would come after work but guess not. We had agreed to go online to look for something but oh well. It will happen later if not tonight. I have Chiro in A.M. Progress on my health. I am racked with pain tonight. It is about a 7 on 1 to 10 scale. Yucky huh? Well, it will get better... the stress causes flare-ups of the Fibro but it is on the way out. I love going online and blogging and reading others blogs and next week I will try and make it more positive as it is bound to get better. God will not let me be crushed completely.
I am considering going to a Financial Counselor as these emergencies are tough (but not one of those fly-by-night ones that steals your money and does nothing.) I will do research to find what I need! This onslaught has to end eventually. But even if it does not I will stand strong and do my best. That will have to be enough. God will help me. I believe and will not be shaken loose. Shaken but strong that's me!