Dylan Thomas

Poetry is what in a poem makes you laugh, cry, prickle, be silent, makes your toenails twinkle, makes you want to do this or that or nothing, makes you know that you are alone in the unknown world, that you bliss and suffering is forever shared and forever all your own. - Dylan Thomas

Friday, March 28, 2008

Sometimes I just don't get it...

So a gal I have been mentoring for awhile has just committed fraud and I know about it. She will pay for what she has done but she is bluffing her way through to appear as if she did nothing but believe wrong information. I have listened to her and to the facts and see that she is not telling the truth. I want her to have to suffer the consequences of her choices. Why? Not to be cruel but so she will accept the responsibility of her own heart's evil. We all have to do that in the process of getting over being religious and becoming a true follower of Christ.
The humbling of a person is the sometimes only way to get rid of the pride that tells us we are entitled no matter who we hurt or what law we break. I am so sad but Jesus is the only one who can get through to her in the dark night of her private innermost thoughts and dealings with God. Once we see who we are in our own strength then He has a chance to change us into His likeness. But only by clinging to Him through it all. I cannot get out of my consequences either. God has me under His personal plan of refining. But this? What bugs me most is this lady is smart enough to have known she couldn't get away with this obvious act of fraud. So I don't get it....maybe it is so I will look harder at my own senseless acts of desperation.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Musings and grumblings

I am in a blizzard with the flu. This aching just won't stop. S is sick in Madison. Peggy went there last night and took care of the kids. She will go again if the 12 inches predicted don't keep her away when she can get free at work. Demetrius will go with a family that is very interested in him should he become adoptable. They are Christians and the dad is gung ho on sports and loves to do homework with kids. Could anything better occur?
I would have gone to work in Mad but with the wind 25 mph and snow coming down and my body aching and tummy so touchy I just could see nothing but me by the roadside being sick. Thus I am watching Animal Planet and listening to Jack cough. He thinks he is getting better but I don't see much change...well maybe he didn't cough as much and he did finally sweat. That may be a good sign.
Yesterday was the first day of spring and Amberly and Jimmy gave birth to their son Christian. He came in at 8 lbs 7 oz and 21 inches long. Mama and baby are at home and hopefully doing well. Jimmy is there for the weekend so all should go well. I am interested in hearing how they do when he goes back to work.. Amberly sleeps when Jimmy work Perhaps Jimmy doesn't need a lot. They are young. Jimmy is 22 I think and Amberly about 25. The good thing is he adores her and was greatly looking forward to the baby arriving. The pregnancy was hard to maybe she will be more active now. I remember those days with my four. I only had help with Mike for a couple weeks as I stayed at LaValle. It all worked out. So if I could get well from this flu I could go take pictures and post them of baby Christian! Sigh oh well back to Animal Planet!

Friday, March 14, 2008

My house is sick and longs for spring...

I have a cold. Jack is coughing and Jenna seems under a rock for sure. I have worked in an environment of unhealth and lived in one too. I am currently in Madtown taking Vitamin C and eating grapefruits and wishing I had rum-soaked (or is it gin soaked) raisins. Oh and I am taking that homeopathic that fights flu. they want an arm and leg for it so I only got one packet of 6 doses. The sun is out and Tish is down and I am blogging and not resting but both are beneficial to my health either mental or physical...
I look forward to spring and want to enjoy the onset. I am collecting pictures of flowers and yearning to rototill and plant peppers and chard. Sigh. Maybe I will grow some baby herbs to transplant just to ease my anxious self. Mostly I need to look for ways to earn a hundred bucks and then do it again each week. Sigh!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Wedding Bells will soon ring out!

So it looks like Jamie and Lance will be getting married in May at the Bridges of Madison County and that immediate family will be invited and it will be the day before the reception at Cedar Valley. Wow! It is going to be a wonderful day for them and I pray I can be there. Things are not good financially but I pray that money will happen and jobs will appear and I will be there with tinkley bells on! Yippee! I believe this will be good. I have a positivity over this that overcomes the natural suspicion that people have for anyone trying to marry their daughter(sister, or best friend) so I am just going with that wonderful positive impression. My prayers are with them of course just as they have been for Ira and Ash, for Mike and Jessica and the products of those unions. Marriage is a wild adventure. It is not for the unstable or the fearful or the day-dreamer there is much to much reality for the day-dreams to stay alive and too many dangers for the fearful and too much adventure for the unstable. Marriage is for the brave and adventuresome who find the reality is better than the fantasy and refuse to retreat in the face of the dangers that appear. Marriage is business and partnership and covenant stuff with mysteries that never are solved and tensions that stay taught and problems that ebb and flow and sometimes are put behind us. Marriage is a trial and a blessing and a long road that winds and climbs. I know this well after so long and so many false starts. Blessings upon them as they plunge beneath the waterfall holding hands. Blessings upon them as they walk down the winding and steep road. Oh yeah!