Been Down so Long it seems like Up to Me!

I long to breathe without feeling congested! I long to sleep all night. I long to spend time alone doing things I love to do! I long to write more, cook more and walk until I am tired wearing comfy shoes! Fantasy aside I do have goals and longings and I want to achieve all I can for God and am trying to get my health to another level....so am going on a purge and a push to get there. Wish me well! I will post the details as they develop. I want to read new books and think new thoughts and smile more and learn to run again pacing myself but enjoying energy...I want to dance and wear floaty gowns and slippers. I want my hair to look like my heart feels and my crinkly eyes to crinkle more as I laugh and smile and scream against injustice and glare down the enemy with scripture and knowing who I am in Jesus. I want to help some up and push some down by the blood of Jesus. I want to give up what I have and receive the blessings God showers on me all the while. I want to get out of debt and get into a business that will help me pour into a ministry to help those who have been sold into abuse. I want to see the last years of my life shine with moments of Joy and Victory. So I will try and I will pray and I will do and I will listen and I will follow and I will say no and I will say yes! I want to walk with hinds feet on the high places of my sin and sorrrow...Jesus take my hand and lead me higher to where I would be afraid to go. I am ready!

Angels

We certainly have idealized angels into feminine creatures but who knows how many actually are and remember that SATAN himself that evil fallen angel was a cherub. Does this shock you? We imagine that those gone before are now angels when in actuality angels are created beings and we cannot earn wings no matter how "good" we are. Actually we cannot even be good enough for any reward. WE are sinful creatures whom God saw fit to give a leg up by sending His only son Jesus to die for us and be the living sacrifice for He could not stay in a grave. The resurrection power of God was too great and now we have a Savior praying for us and angels watching out for us after we accept Jesus as Lord and Savior. Angels are, and fallen angels (demons) are, and we are...... simple and powerless next to them...... but for God! Isn't this just so exciting and wonderful. It is the only thing I can get out of this life that makes a bit of sense. So hope you are feeling the pull of the Holy Spirit and will know God if you do not already. It is certainly the most exciting thing I can imagine.

Sick and Crabby!

My hip hurts and my throat is sore now just when I quit coughing so much. Tish is like a tiger when I dress her and that throws my body into wierd positions as I defect the blows and try and aim a limb into a sleeve or a thrashing leg into a pair of tights. My oh my! I have wrapped and shopped with Suzanne, Demetrius and Tish for craft items to go on the kid tree. She wants me to do crafts with Metrie as Karah and her Gingerbread house have gone to Peggy's place to construct. I wrapped with him and sang nursery rhymes as rap while I wrapped for me. It was fun but I needed a break and the kid didn't arrive home til 11:30 PM and he never really was with his mom as she blew him off for a party and he just stayed at Grannies. I feel so bad for him. He has to be right all the time to be happy and he desperately wants to be secure and loved in a home where he is front and center. I pray God will help him find a godly man to emulate and a mom to teach him manners and how to be helpful. Fiddle sticks and bones it has little chance of happening. so you readers out there please pray as we need a miracle big enough for this little black boy's need. I care!